I like to think of the Avengers as warriors, instead of soldiers.
Soldiers are noble—they fight for their country, to protect those they love. They have honor, and camaraderie.
The Avengers…we are different. I was not surprised when we fought each other over the Sokovian Accords. Warriors have their own personal reasons for fighting. A sense of responsibility. Of past trauma.
Someone like Steve fights because he cannot help it. He needs a purpose for his strength. Why have abilities if you do not use them to help people?
Stark fights because he feels guilty about his past. Thor fights to protect a realm he cherishes. Each of us has a reason. I can see them all like fault lines in our minds. Are we each broken in a way that makes us strong, or are we on the verge of shattering entirely?
It is a delicate balance.
I think writers are the same kind of people. Warriors. Each writer has a reason. A deep, driving urge that encourages them to put pen to paper, or fingers to the keyboard. When you are a warrior, sometimes you must fight alone. Sometimes you must push on past your fear, past your uncertainties. Sometimes you are very lucky, and someone like Hawkeye tells you to put the past behind you, to fight for the present.
So you step up. You become an Avenger, or sign up for NaNoWriMo. You commit to use these maddening, frustrating abilities in a world that doesn’t make sense. Because you are a warrior.
That is what NaNoWriMo is all about. It gathers up all the lone warriors, driven by individual motivations. Whether you have a detailed outline or absolutely no plan how to defeat the robot horde you helped create—you are a warrior, and telling your story is one of the most important battles you’ve ever faced.
Do not lose heart. It is a big job, and scary. But you control your own fear. And you can win this battle.